spinning wheels

As I look back at the last time Ive posted its been almost a year. Unfortunately I don't know if it been time or desire I've lacked the most to write.

I stand for what I believe and always have even when it hasn't won favor with those that don't agree. I have recently been a bit troubled by those closest to our family. Some of those whom we've drawn closest to in the past several years have began to get a little under my skin. I have lost faith in some, trust in others, hope for a few, and have been very disappointed in the decisions of those who once were rated very high in my opinion. I have watched men make decisions of men instead of being led of God and have watched men strong in God be led away by men.

As I began upon the journey of turning my life around over 4 years ago and becoming a follower of Christ , a lot of important ordinances and duties were revealed to me and my family that was not present before our Baptism. I have always had a strong love for the gospel of Jesus Christ and truly can testify of the Restoration, Joesph Smith, Book of Mormon, Temples , and Prophets today.

I will not say why for sure, but can say that I know that the saying " the gospel is perfect , the people are not" is something to hold dear to. I am very upset by some recent things that have went on and things Ive either been a part of or heard of. I have no desire to be a part of the "leadership" group any longer and feel that not knowing anything that goes on would be best especially when it comes to such a tight knitted little family that can't ever seem to keep its mouth shut.

The part in the scriptures that references to not judging others and also talks about forgiving all men is something people need to read daily. Maybe in there interpretation of the Word, they feel that they judge wisely when they make inappropriate comments about an investigators choice of clothing or maybe its the ill look upon there face when they refer to a new members choice of clothing for Sunday or the fact that still wear more than one ear ring. Whatever the minute complaint, it still falls as judgment and still makes me uneasy.

I cannot speak For the Lord Himself, but if I had to guess........ I'm pretty sure he don't really really care what we all have on as long as were there, and further more, I find it hard to believe that a God as merciful as ours would condemn us for fundamental discrepancies.